kailey hudson photography

you’re confused. you’re hurt. you’re excited. you’re worried. you’re driven. you’re happy. you’re disappointed.

confusing right? you’re a 20-something-year old.. it’s normal. but here is my advice or more so, things in my life that have been bugging me for the past couple of weeks to write this blog.. so here it is.

bubble baths. take lots of bubble baths. yeah, cliché right? no. they seriously are like the best thing ever. btw, I’m totally writing this in a huge bubble bath.. judge me if you must. light a candle, turn off the lights and ponder life in the tub.. seriously, sometimes I think if I sit there long enough I could find the cure for cancer.. or how to keep my fingers from turning into prunes because I spend entirely too much time in the bath. ~~at least an hour to be exact.~~ by the way, dear future husband.. merideth said it all when she told derek all she really wants is a bath tub that covers her knees and chest at the same time. amen sister.

are you freakin out about college? if your classes suck this semester.. trust me.. you’re going to get through it. trust me lol. or if you’re in my case it’s to the point where you hear the question that you dread hearing during the holidays.. “so what are you going to do when you graduate?”
idk great aunt sue…. leave me alone.
seriously, if I hear that question one more time I may lose it. or the “oh.. you’re a photographer? why did you get a degree in agriculture…?”
yep, we’re done here.
kbye.
but in all seriousness, the questions will never stop. I have no idea what I’m going to do with the rest of my life so you are not alone friends.. looking into different schools, grad school (snooze button on life), idk. but that’s okay, we’re all on a path of our own and God knows where we’re gunna end up. (thank goodness someone does..)

okay, enough about the very random small talk.. this is the point that everyone cares about. the reason everyone has been reading this.. unless you’ve stopped already then k cool.

relationships. can’t live with em, can’t live without em.
word.
you’re going to fall in love. it’s part of life. and you’re going to fall for the douche.. probably more than one of them.. that’s also part of life. but don’t let this part of life bring you down. it is going to change you.. there is no question bout that.. but let it change you for the better. learn from your mistakes. and most importantly, LISTEN TO YOUR GUT!!! lordy I can not stress that enough. oh and listen to your mother.. she’s somehow always right.
don’t be afraid to fall in love… let your guard down.. but know, you are probably going to get hurt.. it’s a part of it. like i said, learn from your mistakes. it’s hard to know if you’ve chosen the douche or perfect match because during the “honeymoon stage”, every guy or gal is the perfect match. but eventually you get “past that stage”….. or so I’ve been told. ~~(asshole right?)~~
but when you start seeing the red flags.. this will send you into fight or flight mode.. and in my opinion.. you need to fly. this is where the listen to your gut comes into play.. if there’s a little part of you that knows he or she is constantly trying to run away, then let go. there is NO need to chase someone who doesn’t want you.. then you just look like an idiot.. sorry but time to be blunt y’all because someone wasn’t blunt enough with me.
just let him or her go.. don’t even bother to pick the whole thing apart.. you’ll make yourself go crazy with the assuming and the questioning. when the truth is simple.. he/she wasn’t the one. as hard as it is sometimes, accept that and move on.
he/she’s a jerk, and a loser and has a VERY cold heart.. and that has absolutely nothing to do with you. if he or she is not ready to be step up, that’s not your fault.
the next thing is respect.
if he/she doesn’t respect you now, he/she never will. don’t think you can change that. he or she may can put on the act that he or she does for a little while… but the true colors will come out and this is the point where you need to walk away. for your own sake. so you don’t lose yourself in this type of emotionally abusive relationship. because from past relationships, I learned that really is a real thing. your mom and best friends aren’t telling you to leave him/her for their sake.. they’re trying to save you. to save you from turning into the girl/guy you always said you would never be. the girl/guy who let’s someone walk all over them.. because admit it, every day you’re analyzing his/her every move.. it absorbs your life and bombards your brain. “why was he texting less? were other girls more interesting to him? why does he never ask to hang out anymore? why is he always hiding his phone? why does he have Tinder now?”
let go of the guy/girl who is hurting you. if he or she makes you feel alone when you’re together, makes you feel guilty for sharing your feelings, won’t give you a sense of security, and gives you no effort.. leave.
If you call him or her out on lying to your face about why he or she was with their ex and then victimizes him or herself and makes you feel bad about bringing it up, then leave. be with someone who will work through every issue you have and leave you feeling better than you did at the start of the conversation.

as hard as it is to believe, everything you ever wanted really is waiting out there.. yeah I know, a lot of you are thinking “how to you know?”.. well I believe it and I trust that God had got me one hell of a duet partner for shania sing-a-longs.
so take a deep breath and let the wind blow through your hair. let it wash you clean. pull yourself together cuz there is so much more to you. you’re going to be okay. trust me. there’s a clear blue sky in front of you and you’re free to follow your dreams until they come true.. this is only the beginning even though it feels like the end.

if you loved the wrong one this much, just imagine how much you’ll love the right one. now that’s something to think about.

“Unless it’s mad, passionate, extraordinary love, it’s a waste of your time. There are too many mediocre things in life. Love shouldn’t be one of them.”

so give that guy or girl that’s been chasing you for years a chance.. if it doesn’t work out at least you can say you tried. or that new hottie you just met.. don’t be afraid to take a risk and just try. because you never know. but remember what you read here today.. remember the signs.

the last thing I wanna say is find a best friend. not the “omg we’re besties because we’re both blondes”.. no.
I’m talking about merideth grey and christina yang.
find someone who is your person. someone who will listen to you gripe for the 863rd time about that asshole guy or crazy girl and then tell you that they understand why you’re sticking around.. but then will tell you’re an idiot for doing it.
someone who will share random posts/blogs with you in secret on facebook because they’re too embarrassingly true to share to the whole world.
someone who really knows the deepest darkest parts of you and still is proud to call you their best friend.

wow. this was ridiculously long.. sorry about that.. I got carried away. well my bath water is now ice and it’s time for bed.

best and God bless,
Kai. ♕